Personal Journal Share

My Journaling Process

My daily journal practice is my dedicated time to process, sort, receive guidance, and reflect. I consider the intro part as where I just clear out all the yada yada yada, like what I need to do and how I feel about things. The rest of the time is asking questions and receiving insight, inspiration, and invitations from my Higher Self (We/They/Them).

(Note: Spirit Team meetings are when I want to ask for guidance, support, and action items for a specific topic. I consider my Higher Self as the one who directs my path and my Spirit Team who are the collective beings that I call on to help me.)

Since journaling is an intimate interaction not intended for anyone but me, the language and the way things are presented to me can include inside jokes, call-back references, cliché phrases, and lots of analogies.

I go through times where there are several days or weeks that I gradually receive deeper or different perspectives on something I’m working through. There’s usually a “wrap up” of the topic and I come away with a few phrases that are used as short-hand reminders or a call back to the topic to help me use that knowledge.

Over the past few months, I’ve been processing a deep urge to create dramatic change. It feels like it’s a response to having spent a long time only making little changes and resisting making any big ones. It sort of feels like there’s an inner “one foot on the gas and one on the brake”.

At times, I’ve felt like jumping out of the proverbial car and starting on a new path. It wouldn’t be the first time that I’ve followed that trajectory. But at this point in my life, I also know that I don’t have to be so dramatic.

I’ve received a few theme-linked summary phrases over the past couple of weeks. My Higher Self has provided all the expanded perspectives for me and what choices I have, but essentially it boils down to these two phrases:

Allow. Allow. Allow.

Let go or be dragged. 🧲⚡️

Although the messages are for my personal growth and evolution, there are elements that are applicable to anyone that feels like they’re being called towards change.

An Unexpected Personal Reveal

Usually when I write my newsletters, it’s in a channeled state and I discover the topic as I’m writing it. Sometimes, I ask for a specific topic beforehand and We start from there.

This post is adapted from my monthly newsletter and the following, is a personal share from my morning journal Q&A with my Higher Self. I was trying to figure out where to start for my newsletter.

Note: I don’t always want to follow inner-guidance. I sometimes struggle to make choices that step away from my “stay safe” conditioning and avoid taking risks to change.

I’m taking this risk to share my personal journal entry because it’s a good example of what it can look like when you create a conversation with your Higher Self. It also reveals my process of “Letting go and Allow, Allow, Allow”.

Q&A With My Higher Self

The following has been edited only for readability, punctuation, and attribution.

Me: We’ve gone through all these discussions about change and have covered pages and pages about everything from electromagnetic physics, astrology, collective consciousness, and soul path change points, etc., but it’s a lot to condense into something that’s useable or actionable. How do I share it?

Higher Self: One thing that is “required” for these times is to allow yourself to change. That starts with what we’ve been telling you; allow, allow, allow. It doesn’t have to be done all at once and it does not need to be perfect. It’s time for exploration. Change is coming. Choose it. Allow it. Let go or be dragged.

Me: OK. I “get” this as a personal message and I know it’s not about “playing to an audience”, but how do I write about this as something that makes a supportive newsletter?

Higher Self: Write your experience. What’s happening? What do you “know”? What would you be interested in reading? What about your current experience would be helpful for you if you came across it in someone else’s newsletter? Like, write the post you’d like to read.

Me: Aaaahhhh… I get that in principle, but I’m actually not clear about what I’m going through. Hahahahaha 🙂

Higher Self: Palm to Forehead – Hahahahaha 🙂
What’s the most difficult thing for you right now? What are you learning?

The things you’re seeking for, or to understand, aren’t that different than anyone else. Ultimately, you want to feel like you have a direction or path and that if you “follow” it, you’re going to be guaranteed some sort of safety and security.

But, listen up buttercup – you aren’t actually controlling anything. When you’re not following the guidance, you’re making choices based on your best abilities to navigate your beliefs and conditions. And the thing is, if you’re always choosing for safety or the “sure thing”, you’re living in those conditioned limits.

Your choices are ones that maintain a sense of the “known” which you, in theory, understand what’s required. But we’d say that when you sense, feel, or can see the chaos of change coming or is happening, it’s time to “Let go or be dragged.”

When you try to hold on to what’s trying to leave your life, or trying to control or manipulate the inevitable, it creates suffering. And as you know, the change is towards your calling or growth.

And what your conditioning would tell you is that it’s dangerous to take up space, be seen, grow, speak and share your self, or be your self. This is especially the case when you choose steps or a path that’s outside of your conditioning. Even if it’s just a little bit different, it can feel like a huge risk.

Think of it this way our “intrepid questioner”; see yourself as a compass and you’re operating in an energy field of conditions that are marked as “North”, but you feel that something is “off”. Like you can feel your inner compass constantly guiding/directing/attracting you towards your “True North”, but you’re holding onto the socialized “Collective North” and that’s a turbulent and exhausting experience.

(Remember, we likened this to the earth’s Graphic North Pole as like the fixed “Collective North” of beliefs and expectations. And the Magnetic North Pole = is like Your “True North” Path. The Graphic North Pole doesn’t change, but the Magnetic North moves on its own path.)

What would it look like to let go of the parts of your beliefs and behaviors that keep you holding on to the “collective north pole”? What guidance and the magnetic pull of your own True North is calling you to let go and change?

What if all the friction you’re feeling is because you feel and KNOW the pull towards change – but you won’t allow yourself to change? It’s like you’re trying to hold on in a storm that’s actually trying to free you.

We’ve already gone through these topics from so many ways; like eclipses, physics, solar flare magnetics, astrology, soul-path change points, and the mounting call and guidance for change.

It’s your choice to step into the flow of the changes that are aligned with your True North.

And, it’s more fun to choose to change than to bump around on the path.

Let go or be dragged. Allow, allow, allow.

Of course, we’re talking specifically to you here, but there’s always an invitation for everyone to review what beliefs, relationships, situations, and expectations are ready for a change.

Let go of beliefs and behaviors that are about limits and control.

Me: OK. Got it. Mind my own business and focus on what’s true for me. LOL

Higher Self: Allow, allow, allow. Let go or be dragged. LOL

Me: LOL. Thank you. 💜 (End)

Allow Allow Allow

I’ve been looking at where I’ve been holding on and trying to control myself and outcomes of change.

The invitation is to let go of what wants to leave and allow for change. It doesn’t mean that I don’t have some choice or that it’s going to be easy. I could continue to choose to avoid or delay, but ultimately, change is going to happen and it’s going to be more turbulent (and less magical) if I try to stifle it.

You don’t need to spend hours everyday reviewing your life or have a long sit down with your Higher Self. You can have an ongoing inner-discussion throughout your day and ask for insight, action steps, and support from your Higher Self and Spirit Team. (I’m also here to help you in Clarity Sessions.)

Maybe you’re not in a cycle of big change and it’s more about clearing up a little energetic space to gain some clarity and direction.

You can’t “miss” your life, but some choice points do pass by and move you towards a different set of experiences for you life themes. (And some of those can be real shake ups.)

If you feel like change is calling you, here are a few ways to look for clarity and direction.

  • Look at your work, relationships, beliefs, and behaviors to see where you’re holding on, trying to control, or not allow change.
  • What feels “off” for you and you know it’s time to change?
  • What are you holding on to that wants to go?
  • What creative ideas, opportunities, and possibilities want to come to and through you?
  • If you had no fear, what would you choose? (This is more about exploring your dreams and desires, and then identifying the beliefs, behaviors, and fears that limit or hold you from exploring them.)

Let go or be dragged

My Higher Self makes an inside joke about “Let go or be dragged” because it helps me reference the times when I held on to highly dysfunctional jobs, relationships, and situations for a long time, even when I knew I should and could leave.

These were each painful and an exhausting experiences, but they didn’t have to be as bad as they were. (But maybe they did in order for me to learn that I didn’t need to hold on to them.) 🤷🏻‍♀️

At the time, I held on because of the conditioned reasons and expectations of why I should stay. I molded myself into something that was never going to work out for me. I tried to change myself to fit rather than let go and choose to follow my inner-guidance.

You’d think by now that I’d remember that when I let go and don’t resist change, then “miracles” happen that couldn’t have otherwise. Ugh. Yeah. That’s why it helps to have a phrase to remind me.

Oh, and in case you’re wondering, most of what I’m letting go of are the limits of creative expression I put on my work and writing.

This personal share about my journaling process and discussion with my Higher Self is my part of my Allow, Allow, Allow and I’m trusting I won’t be dragged. Hahaha 😘

You’re Guided. Period.

You’re not going to miss out on your life. The “big things” that you came here to experience will keep coming up as a theme.

Magic is more likely to happen when you follow the call of your True North (magnetic north attracts).

Instead of trying to figure everything out and worrying that you have to be exactly right, just take the next best step for you.

Where do you feel called towards change?

Check-in with your inner-guidance and call on Them to help you – even in dream time.
Are you guidable? Be open, willing, and ready to receive.
Look for the obvious signs of guidance trying to get your attention. (Allow, allow, allow)

I’m here for you too.
Here are some helpful options for Clarity Sessions to receive energy work and supportive guidance from me and your Spirit Team.

Thank you for being here.
I’m rooting for you every step of the way.

Much love,
Angela 💗✨🌸

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